Desperate For A Job, I Applied At A Sandwich Shop. The Response I Got Was Soul-Crushing.

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"I know I'm not the only one. There are millions of us stuck in the liminal space between unemployment and invisibility."

I handed in a job application at a sandwich shop last week. There was a giant Now Hiring sign taped to the front window, so I walked in and, to my surprise, they handed me a paper application. I filled it out, smiled, and returned it to them.

They never called me.

I tell myself it's probably because I'm too old. Maybe it's because I didn't apply online, or because the kid behind the counter didn't scan my info into the system. I don't know. I only know that I was ready to make sandwiches for minimum wage, and nobody even wanted that from me.

I have a master's degree in interdisciplinary arts and decades of experience, both personal and professional. I speak two languages. As if any of that matters.

I've been told all my life that I'm smart, and yet here I am, chronically underemployed, invisible in the job market, and applying anywhere I can -- hardware stores, pet supply chains, and garden centers. No one writes back. No one calls.

"Please upload your résumé," I'm told. I do and it disappears into the algorithmic abyss, and I never hear from a human being.

I don't need a career. I need a paycheck. But the system seems to think I'm either aiming too low or not playing the game right, or worse, that I don't exist at all.

This has been going on for years. I've rewritten my résumé more times than I can count, tried leaving off my degree, tried playing up my "people skills," tried the QR codes and portals and ghost-job listings that don't lead anywhere. Nothing works. Every rejection chips away at something I used to believe about myself. Something like worth.

At one point, I thought maybe I had undiagnosed ADHD. Or social anxiety. Or something that could explain the gap between what I know I can do and how the world seems to view me. But mostly, I return to one haunting possibility: Maybe I'm just clueless. Maybe I've been clueless for years, and everyone else knows it except me.

That is, hands down, my greatest fear -- not failure, not poverty, not even loneliness: the idea that I might be fundamentally out of sync with the world, and not even aware of it.

Because here's the truth that nobody likes to talk about: being educated, competent and willing to work is no guarantee that you'll find work. Especially not in a system where hiring has become automated, impersonal and biased in a hundred tiny, invisible ways. Especially not in a country where being overqualified is treated like a liability, where aging disqualifies you from entry-level jobs, and where the tech used to "streamline" applications often ends up gatekeeping the people who need the job the most.

I'm not homeless. I'm not addicted. I'm not mentally ill. I've never made more than $20,000 in a year, either. I'm somewhere in the gray area where you're struggling but not visibly enough to qualify for help. The kind of person nobody builds policy for. The kind of person nobody notices when they fall through the cracks, because we don't fit any of the typical narratives about success or failure.

I know work isn't just about money. It's also about rhythm, purpose and dignity. It gives your days structure and your brain something to do besides spiral into self-questioning. But when you're perpetually locked out of even the most basic opportunities, the effect isn't just economic. It's existential.

I know I'm not the only one. There are millions of us -- smart, willing, even desperate to work -- stuck in the liminal space between unemployment and invisibility. Nearly half of all college graduates are underemployed, many for a decade or more. Résumés vanish into algorithmic black holes, and being "overqualified" is often treated like a red flag. Older applicants, especially women, are routinely overlooked. It's not just me. It's a quiet crisis, and it's growing.

This piece may sound absurd to some people who believe success is tied to how hard a person tries, and failure indicates a flaw in someone's character, an inherent lack of discipline, or an unwillingness to go all out for what you want.

But what if the reality of success or failure is not dependent on a person's character but is simply the result of a person's circumstances, which are, ultimately, rarely within one's control?

Or what if the world has finally arrived in the digital age, and those of us still fumbling around in the world of history, philosophy, humanity and faith have become ... obsolete?

I used to think people like me would be the ones shaping the future. Now I'm just trying to survive in it. I was trained to think critically, to lead, to imagine better systems. But I'm being overlooked by people -- and AI -- who aren't capable of doing what I can do. They don't realize they're saying no to the very resources that could help us navigate the crises ahead.

And if I can't do that, I just want a chance to be useful somehow.

I have so much to give.

I would make the best sandwiches anyone has ever tasted.

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  • You aren't alone in this aspect of labour market that keeps disappointing, the worst is underemployment but then it's as if it favours the skilled job... seekers  more

  • if they never called you back - it's a red flag to you that you honestly do NOT want to work with, and for, those people.

    That's rude and that would... turn into a miserable working environment if you did get the job more

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  • sorry this is happening in your season I pray you find a job that's of your liking and build the career that you want and not allow jobs like that to... take you down I been in that boat serve times and what's for you will be for you I settle for jobs I wasn't suppose to settle for and it burnt me in the long run have you thought about a small business what jobs your looking for ? school board is hiring and its usually a quick hire setting depending on the department like teachers subs seem to get hired quickly and cafe tech praying that you get a job other kitchen are hiring as well more

  • Disclaimer: I'm not familiar with the traditional job niches open to folks with your training. That said, I'm not convinced you are the sandwich maker... I would hire.

    The overall tone of your inquiry is one of near desperation (I know it's hard to not look or sound desperate when one feels like that, but please remember that you are marketing yourself)

    In the age of AI and robotization, you may need to retrofit your education and training and offering to employers. It sounds to me like someone with your degree and background should best understand issues at the employee-machine interface (a different kind of sandwich).

    Yes, get your basic J-o-b, and then turn yourself into a specialist capable of helping organizations manage the human and organizational adaptations they must inevitably make in the AI Age. Research the organizations that are doing it right and the failures and determine what value-adding insights you can bring based on your research and education. And then work on your new elevator pitch. (The novel is too much).

    Finally, the resume may get you an interview, but ultimately, it's often networking contacts that tip the scales. Get to know the people working on the inside of the sector you wish to break into on a first name basis.

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  • Wow, it's good to know that I'm not alone in this. I'm 57, and I was a tenured professor at Antioch College for ten years. Then, the powers that be... decided to close the undergraduate college, hire adjuncts, and go mostly online as a diploma mill. I was lucky enough to get a job teaching high school. Then, Covid, a stroke, brain surgery, and I was fired via Zoom. It gets worse, but I lie about my age to get 60+ age movie tickets. It's easier than lieing about my age back in the 1980's to get into "R" movies. I have a job interview tomorrow for a college dean position which I probably won't get, but I don't get the jobs I'm overqualified for anyway. My only advice is despite everything, despite denying my own abilities, keep plugging away. Somehow, somewhere, you just may find something amazing, or perhaps, it may even find you. Invisibility is a chronic problem for people of a certain age. Keep seeking, and you'll eventually be seen. more

  • Like Susan mind set is in the right direction. You're wasting your time at places like this. Your skill set is meant elsewhere.

  • You write so well. I wish you could go into writing/editing. Keep trying and don't give up.

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  • I'm 57 years old and a trained and experienced CPA. I know how it feels .

  • If you are seriouly trying to say that you can't go out tomorrow morning and find a job for minimum wage tomorrow, I have no choice but to say you... must be lying. more